I’m just a prisoner, one of many. I’m nothing special. Many others are in the same predicament as I: prisoners of themselves.
Depression, low self-esteem, loneliness, and so on and so forth. They’re all links of the same chain, a heavy chain I’ve worn around my neck ever since I was born and that’s been weighing me down ever since. Seldom have I been able to run, let alone endeavor to fly, yet this is nobody’s fault by mine. Or is that also my low self-esteem talking? I don’t think I will ever know.
What is the point of this blog? It has no point, truly. It’s just an yet another exercise in futility to try and feel better, somehow. You know, how they always say to keep a journal? I never kept one. I have issues with the past, I can’t even go through old photos; many people love doing so, but me, well, it makes me very uneasy. Good memories sadden me because they’re gone; bad memories sadden me because they’re bad. So a journal, a private, personal journal, is more of a nightmare than anything else. But I figured: let’s give it a try, after all I have nothing to lose. Nobody know who I am. I’m just a number. These are just words. This could disappear in an instant and even if it were archived, it would be quickly lost in the ocean of more sensible content out there.
I’m just a prisoner, one of many. I’m nothing special. But I feel like talking about it.
Please know that you have someone out here with a listening ear! Keep writing!
Comment by Brent — 2016-01-13 @ 07:04
Thank you very much. Out of sheer curiosity, may I ask how you found this fresh new blog?
Comment by Inmate #840528 — 2016-01-13 @ 10:25
Is this the same Diary of a Prisoner from a couple years ago? I really missed those posts and have wondered whatever happened to the person. The info was very helpful to me as I prepared myself and my 22 yr. old son to serve a 15-30 yr. sentence. I got this in my email and I was signed up for the past diary of a prisoner. So, now I’m getting these I guess. Thank You
Comment by Mindy Rosin — 2016-01-16 @ 10:00
Hello Mindy, I’m sorry but this has nothing to do with the previous site that was here, in fact I only learned now through your comment that there was another site with this name. This domain name (diaryofaprisoner.com) was available when I registered it in early 2015, so I suppose that the previous owner just let it expire at some point. I only now decided to make a blog to talk, anonymously, about what it’s like to deal with depression; it has nothing to do with actual prisons. I’m sure that, if the old owner comes across this and sees your comment, they’ll contact you. Best of luck to you and your son.
Comment by Inmate #840528 — 2016-01-16 @ 11:07
I feel your finally starting to except your illegal behavior in all of its ways. I know about them believe me. You should feel bad about what you have done. That is what prison is for. Your self esteem should be low. You have had very little positive contributions to society thus far.
Except your sins and own them.
And go from there with no excuses.
Be a man, not that guy with all those bull shit excuses from your previous blog.
Comment by Dave — 2016-01-18 @ 00:31
This is an entirely unrelated blog run by someone else despite the same address, see https://diaryofaprisoner.com/2016/01/17/about-the-other-site-that-used-to-be-here/
Comment by Inmate #840528 — 2016-01-18 @ 00:40